Now I just have to get my gender marker changed. So many good things this year. 71 days on T today as well! :)
how my mother can look at me and see a daughter trying to be a man and not a son who defies social stereotypes. I hate it so much.
I have been slacking and haven’t made a 2 months on T update. Today I am 65 days on T. I feel like my hips are reshaping and my belly hair is definitely coming in much thicker. The pictures never give it justice. I have a lot of chest and nipple hair as well.
For our anniversary, Ash and I went shopping a little bit and treated ourselves to some new clothing items, LEGOS and games such as travel size Connect 4 and Battleship. Then we took an adventure to downtown Ann Arbor and walked the streets, checked out some cool stores, bought some spiritual flags at this awesome store called The Himalayan Bazaar and almost everything was handmade/made in Nepal. The lady could read some of the Sanskrit on my arm and she said the tattoo artist did an amazing job with capturing the authenticity of the font. I thought that was really awesome. Ash took me to the Alley, which is an alleyway that is filled with graffiti from ground to ceiling. It’s really neat. I wish I would have gotten pictures. For dinner we went to this vegan friendly Indian restaurant called Curry Up. They advertised Indian street food, which was delicious and extremely cheap. An order of samosas and a bowl of this delicious samosa chaat was under 10 dollars. We ended up getting carry out as well because it was so good. Then we came home, built our LEGOS, played Connect 4 and Battleship. The Red Wing game was on and we WON! Then the lady and I ended the night with sexy time. It was perfect. Absolutely perfect.
It is crazy that it is only one year today that we’ve been together when I feel I’ve known and loved you not only in this life, but my past lives as well. Our souls are each other’s match and we have been destined to be together. I am so insanely in love with you. I feel that we can accomplish anything together and we are the best team. You’re my best friend and my lover. You’re the jelly to my peanut butter. You’re my wife, my everything, my soul mate, my confidant and my preciouussss. You’re my purpose on this planet. I am to love you and take care of you as long as we live. I couldn’t imagine a more perfect way to live. I love you muh LE BAEH! I can’t wait to roll around with you tonight and express our love in all the ways we feel fit. xo
Time really does fly, despite the fact I look for changes every day. I’m feeling a tad ill, I’ve caught this little cold that can go away at anytime now. It’s making my voice sound deeper though, that can stay. Definitely have increased bodyhair, more on my belly/back area than anywhere else. My belly and back are hairier than my legs and arms right now, silly silly things. My facial hair is coming in a bit more as I continue to shave and I’m getting a small patch on my chin. and I’m starting to see darker hairs on my soul patch. I feel like facial hair isn’t going to be something I have a hard time growing from what I’ve seen just two months in. That’s really exciting for me, I want to grow massive amounts of facial hair. My sex drive is still at the peak if not climbing still. My appetite has decreased a bit since I’ve been sick. I’ve gained at least 6 pounds since starting T. I’m not seeing it in my waist though, everything fits just the same, I’m going to guess it’s muscle gain. Emotionally, I’m feeling good. Everything is damn good. :)
My immediate family may take a while or forever to accept or not accept the fact that I’m a transsexual man, but I cannot begin to express the love, gratitude and appreciation to the people who have stood by me and not only supported me, but encourage me throughout my transition. Thank you. Thank you so much. <3
Today marks 49 days on T. I had blood drawn last Wednesday to test my T levels and depending on the results I was either going to stay at .05 ML every week or he was going to switch it to .05 ML every 10 days. They called today and said that he’s going to put me every 10 days and I have a follow up on June 3rd to check my levels again.
Ash said she wasn’t surprised they lowered my levels with how bad my mood swings have been. I know it’s what’s best but I am sad that changes will be a be even slower now. I’m excited to see some significant results. It makes it really hard to be patient. I can’t wait until I can grow a playoff beard for hockey!!!!